Fatigued Faith.

I’ve been Christian for honestly my entire life. This year however, I’ve had the fun adventure of having to trust God in ways that I’m not familiar. 7 months into the year, I found myself in a weird space where I knew how to pray for others but I was struggling to believe for myself because, in all honesty, I was tired of being disappointed.

Truth be told, I don’t have the most biblically profound answer to how to overcome fatigued faith. I wish I did (if you do, please share). All I know, and all I’ve learnt, is to just preserve. I know to keep going despite not seeing what I want to see. I know to declare promises that seem impossible. I know to cry out to God and be so real before Him (He already knows you’re gutted and tired so there’s really no point in hiding it from Him)

Yesterday I found it slightly more challenging to open my bible, so I turned up my worship music instead. The line that happened to jump out at me was in a song called “We Dance” by Bethel Music . It says “when my faith gets tired and all hope seems lost, you spin me round and around and remind me of that song”

I couldn’t shake this line. In a season where I’m actually so tired of believing for breakthrough, He holds my hand so tightly and reminds me of how good He is, how faithful He is, how patient and gentle and loving and so very kind He is. I may have contemplated giving up but in those moments (and trust me, there are many of those moments) but God was there with so many reminders:

  • Don’t be obsessed with money but live content with what you have, for you always have God’s presence. For hasn’t he promised you, “I will never leave you alone, never! And I will not loosen my grip on your life!” So we can say with great confidence: “I know the Lord is for me and I will never be afraid of what people may do to me! – Hebrews 13:5-6 TPT
  • If your heart is broken, you’ll find God right there; if you’re kicked in the gut, he’ll help you catch your breath. – Psalm 34:18 MSG
  • Let us seize and hold tightly the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is reliable and trustworthy and faithful [to His word] – Hebrews 10:24
  • God will make this happen, for He who calls you is faithful. – 1 Thessalonians 5:24 NLT

My faith may still be tired, and in all honesty, believing hurts sometimes. But my love for my Jesus & a constant reminder of HIS goodness keeps me going. And perhaps that’s all I’ve needed to learn in this season…


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